Welcome to IDN/ARCHIVE! This is IDN/A's blog

Basically here I'll write about just about everything, what's on my mind, what I'm working on, my current interests, thoughts, a random existential crisis at 3 am(?), well, just about what you'd expect of a blog right?

Not quite sure how often I'll update this yet, as I want to write when I really feel like it, so there's some depth and substance to it and not just trying to fill a void, but let's say atleast once a month for now. Enjoy your stay~

this blog works on mobile as well tho I had to kill the forum format as my brain hurt too much trying to make it work there lmfao

2 weeks left until the concert. This time, not an entry at an ungodly hour, but during an incredibly stressful time. Namely, during concert prep. Tho, I felt while I have these fragile emotions, I wanted to note it down somewhere, it's different from when I look back on it, so I'll just take you OGenies on the journey, now i'm in the middle of it. I've spent the last week working on lyrics the whole time, for one verse. It happens to be a challenging beat and song, the kind I haven't done before. I realized, how little time I had spent on writing lyrics in the past year, as I was constantly hitting walls.

I tend to be a person with a great deal of self awareness, or so I thought, as I write my morning journals fairly frequently. Less so in busy times, and I was wondering why I was giving up so quickly. I would write lyrics, not get anywhere, I would get overwhelmed by the amount of pressure, and I could feel myself mentally collapse. At some points I couldn't think of a single line, or idea, or even a word. My head had been fully occupied with worries, stress, and self doubt. I didn't know how to stop the thoughts, so it resulted in me escaping instead, and napping, anything to have it quiet down. But, I realized, that to achieve my dream, I would have to overcome this... character trait. The places I want to go, the things I want to achieve, would have a lot more pressure in store for me.

So only one answer remains: To become a challenger. To break down what had shaped me in the past. And to create something new. A new version of myself. A version of myself that will be used to the pressure, and face it head on instead of escaping into comfort. I think, now my 2.0 debut is nearing, and Dokomi is the very place where that will happen, I want my 2.0 debut to symbolize that. That this new version of myself is stronger. That I will overcome the challenge. And I still haven't finalized the verse, I'm dealing with alot of uncertainty right now ,but, I want to prove to myself that I can change, so I will write the verse. Even if it means pulling allnighters. I will become the person that I need to become, and it's genuinely going to take blood sweat and tears to "redefine" my DNA.

Thank you for reading and I hope to show you OGenies not only a new original song, but a new version of myself, in 2 weeks from now. I'll fight. BYEDN/A

4:26 am as of writing this entry. Well, I only recovered from my illness today, and a surge of energy came to me at the most ungodly of hours, so honestly I might as well spend some time writing. In hopes that I will get some sleep at a ... relatively decent hour.

Either way, you're now on my brand new web page! Wowee! I've always admired neocities websites as I feel it retains the identity and individuality websites used to have. Make sure to browse the other websites on neocities when you have time. They're all so intricate and made with much love. Even with my limited knowledge in css and html, after a lot of research, I was able to express myself in a simplified format. It's cool right? It's truly the vibes you'd expect from me right? Or maybe I'm showing a side you didn't expect. Maybe you're discovering new sides to me. Well, I did make quite the shift in branding recently, but I have to admit that ID, N/A, (Identity no answer) may have found her identity! Not that I would change my name, but I think I'm the most true to myself I've ever been with this 2.0 arc. I thought of whoisid/whoisidna when I was at a loss of my own identity and purpose in this world, and in the end, the answer could never have been closer to home. Really, I feel like my current self is very much a grown up version of the self I used to be.

who is that? #IDNArts 🧬⛓️ pic.twitter.com/bFGB4Hjvfq

— kokomi🐰💕 (@kokomiin) April 8, 2026

I swear the way Kokomi draws me always makes me so happy

Lately I've been really into Sui Ishida's artwork, the mangaka of Tokyo Ghoul, and it reminded me how there was a character, a female tattoo artist whose style I really adored even years ago. Ah, I just googled and it was a male character. Damn. I don't know why my mind registered him as a girl. Either way his name is "Uta". Something about his style and way of living I thought was very cool.( I don't remember much details though, so a reread is due...) In that same era, I read Nana as well. Nana resonated with me even then. And yet, I was as furthest as I could ever be in discovering my identity. Often in the wrong environment, I think I wandered this world feeling lost for the longest time. Just floating. Ofcourse, there's alot of regret. But in the end, all we have is the present, and the present is a gift, and every day we are given is a gift. I'd like to believe there's still a place for me out there somewhere, a place where I can be the fulltime creator I desire to be, despite starting my journey so "late". But at the very least I can confidently say I'm myself now. And my art and work will reflect that more and more. Looking back 2 years since my debut, my art has really changed from day to night, and the art styles are barely comparable anymore. It's a fascinating shift, and a shift I'm proud of, even if It feels like I haven't gotten much closer to my dream. Somehow, it feels like things will start picking up more from now on. Either way, I'll keep believing and strengthening my belief and focus. I'm currently working on another big project which will see it's premiere soon. Less than 2 months from now. It will be a project that expresses my journey so far (and the journey of others). I hope you'll enjoy the show that is bound to happen.

Sorry for the radio silence, I had intended on writing an IDN/ARCHIVE much earlier, but every time I was like "I want my newest post to be on my website" and then it ended up taking months. I can assure you I will update it more from now on. Thank you for your patience and support, OGenies

im going to put this on my fridge(by Steph @UnicornSocks13

BYEDN/A

empty post so I remember the code (heh)